Normality Resumed

It was dark and cold

There was the eerie light of the street lamp

The only light available

As he tiptoed around the house

Trying to make no noise.

Moaning, But Should I?

Today I needed to work, with Baba being poorly and myself getting the dreaded bug, I haven’t worked for over two weeks, and we have a lot on. There is a lot that needs to be done over these next couple of weeks so I really really stressed this to Mr L.

That I needed to work he had to have Baba.

End Of The Year

You can tell it’s near Christmas. I don’t mean the decorations, the Christmas music that is on where ever you go, or the hoards of people shopping like they have never shopped before. I don’t even mean the sickness that comes in December.

No you can tell it’s near Christmas as everyone is so flaming tired.

Our house is manic at the moment.

Crashing!

Today has been a hard day for me, I wasn’t going to write about it as I feel really bad but I have found the whole process of being a partner and mum difficult today. Really difficult.

I think it is because I am not feeling 100% and Baba is definitely not 100% he has had a cold for a couple of days now and is just very very grumpy. We have had constant screaming for a few days now. And today it really got to me.

This morning Mr L broke one of his trucks, understandably Baba wasn’t that happy about that, so we told him that we would go out and find him another one, like you do. We went to one shop and there was nothing in there, so we decided to go to a local garden centre that we now does a lot of toys in. Well it was the big mistake of the day really.

Our Weekend In Pictures!

We have been really busy these last few days, so here is a round-up in pictures!

(c) 2010 And Then All I Thought About Was You

Baba and I have been baking, he has developed a love for baking and we had great fun making cakes the other day.

Ready For Change, Getting Ready For Change!

Saturday I went off to a meeting that was being held by my upline for Avon and it was an inspiring meeting!

I decided to take Mr L along as he has been a little negative about Avon recently, nothing that wasn’t really deserved, because I haven’t been doing as much work as I could so I haven’t been earning as much as I could hence him believing that Avon could never work and that we weren’t making any money out of it. I wanted to show him that it could be done, and that he just needed to give me the support I needed and get as much enthusiasm about it as myself. And it really worked. Actually it worked better than I thought!

In Limbo

When I had Baba I had a dream that I would be able to work from home, and be at home with him all the time!

The dream has not worked. I am starting the new website, but I need to be bringing in money now!

I am gutted.

I really don’t want to leave Baba, I don’t want to go back to work in that sense, I want to be working from home. But I have tried all I can and nothing else seems to be working!

Yesterday!

Yesterday was a day that I doubted myself. A day where I felt that I could not do anything right.

I doubted my ability to do my job, to start the website and just generally being me. I don’t know why or what had made me feel this way. But it was something that I didn’t like.

I spoke to Mr L in-depth and told him that maybe we would be better off if I just gave everything up and went back to work. Thankfully he reminded me that I would hate this, and I would. However had it gets sometimes I would hate to walk out and leave Baba while I was at work. I love the flexibility that working from home offers me. I love the fact that if he is poorly I can just not work for the day and look after my main priority Baba!

New Adventures

A little while ago, I wrote this post, Boredom – New Things! Polls and Prizes to get everyone’s opinions on my crafts that I do.

I had been having an internal debate with myself about whether I should start selling them, and had kept on at Mr L about it. He eventually got fed up with it all I think as I had asked his opinion so many times, and he kept telling me the same thing. So I decided to open it up to the floor and see what everyone thought!

Boredom – New things! Polls, and Prizes!

So here goes. I am bored!

There I have said it, and it feels much better to have admitted it! I did admit it to Mr L the other day and he agreed that he had noticed. Which was a good and a bad thing! Good that he has taken notice, but bad because I must be showing it a little more than I thought.

My general life and wellbeing is great. Obviously I love being with Mr L and I love being a stay at home mummy, and I would not change that for the world. I love working from home as well. I love doing my writing and do love working on my Avon. However at the moment it is not enough.