Moaning, But Should I?

Today I needed to work, with Baba being poorly and myself getting the dreaded bug, I haven’t worked for over two weeks, and we have a lot on. There is a lot that needs to be done over these next couple of weeks so I really really stressed this to Mr L.

That I needed to work he had to have Baba.

Resisting

You scream and shout
You fight
You kick.
You cry
You shout for help.
If you only knew we not doing anything bad

Crashing!

Today has been a hard day for me, I wasn’t going to write about it as I feel really bad but I have found the whole process of being a partner and mum difficult today. Really difficult.

I think it is because I am not feeling 100% and Baba is definitely not 100% he has had a cold for a couple of days now and is just very very grumpy. We have had constant screaming for a few days now. And today it really got to me.

This morning Mr L broke one of his trucks, understandably Baba wasn’t that happy about that, so we told him that we would go out and find him another one, like you do. We went to one shop and there was nothing in there, so we decided to go to a local garden centre that we now does a lot of toys in. Well it was the big mistake of the day really.

Anger!

He sits on the floor, building his tower.
Lego is his thing at the moment.
It is a joy to watch he gets higher and higher and looks so pleased with himself.
He has decided that he doesn’t want that Lego there, so off it comes.
He pulls and pulls,
To no avail,
His face goes red
He groans, he moans
I ask whether he wants some help
He looks,
He turns his back.

Two Year Old Tantrums

Two year old tantrums have hit our house with an almighty bang!

Today we had meltdown! All over a pair of Daddies sunglasses!

Baba wanted to play with the sunglasses and Mr L had said no to him, but Baba persisted and picked them up anyway. Cue first problem of terrible two’s – Baba doesn’t think that he has to listen to anyone, he is right and that is final!

So mummy decided to intervene, wow what a massive mistake.

Some Days Are So Hard And Full Of Guilt

I was going to do a blog today about the lovely Secret Post Club parcel that I received today from the lovely Susie over at New Day New Lesson but I have had such a bad day that I had to write about that first.

I haven’t felt right since I had the bug on Saturday. I am really tired, I am not into eating very much, and generally still feel pretty sick, but have managed not too. I thought that I was over it, but maybe I was wrong, maybe it is a bug that is refusing to go, but regardless of that it has left me feeling like rubbish!

To top that off I have had a difficult day with Baba.

A bump an almighty bump!

There was a bump, an almighty thud, I didn’t know how it happened and I didn’t know what it was but I knew it wasn’t right.

I started to move, to move to the wrong side. Oh god. I held on as tight as I could and tried to remember what I should do, I pushed the opposite way as hard as I could.

But it wasn’t moving, I was trying so hard.

Oh god, I’m spinning and spinning. It’s getting faster and I can’t see properly. I can’t tell where I am.

Bedtime Mayhem Update

Well night-time sleep has got better in a way! Baba now goes to sleep ok, it still takes a while and he still screams for about 30 mins. But we seem to have a little routine forming again! Yeah!

Baba has a bath and then we go downstairs for him to have his milk. We then go back up when he has had his milk and he has a little story and a cuddle and then I leave the room. He screams but it only seems to be for a few minutes and then he settles himself to sleep.

Bedtime Mayhem!

Last night was a difficult night. We spent nearly an hour and a half trying to get Baba to sleep, and it was very traumatic and very tiring. We were both exhausted by the end of it.

Let me start at the beginning.

Baba used to be great at bedtime, we would give him a bath and his milk, put him in his cot, say goodnight and that was it. Baba would then go to sleep and wouldn’t wake up until the next morning. He had been doing this from about 4/5 months. Perfect!

We knew we were lucky. Then it all went wrong!

Baba was ill!

Pregnancy Bye Bye

I hated being pregnant thats not actually correct, I loathed being pregnant, absolutely despised it, I can’t actually express how much I hated it. To me it was the worst thing that I have had to go through. I am not talking the labour, or the first few months where you can be ill, I am talking the whole thing. From the day I found out to the day I went into labour.

I have never before stated how much I hated it.