I spent a whole day today with Baba, my Mum, Sister, Niece and Nephew, (and Dad for a while) then Mr L came home and then my Best Mate came round. So all in all I have spent the last 18 hours with all the people who mean the most to me. It has been lovely and it has made everything all the more clearer.
I have got really stressed as of late, with work, not meeting the goals that I have set, and just bits and bobs really. Things that if they where isolated incidents wouldn’t be a problem but due to them all arising at the same time, they have meant a bit of disaster has occurd in the L household.
The main worry that I have had has been that I do nothing with Baba, which I have posted about before, I seem to get through the day with him and at the end of it I feel like I have worked and cleaned and done nothing with him! It has really been stressing me out, and I got into a circle of guilt for working, guilt for not working enough and not bringing in enough money to help Mr L out, and then guilt for being grumpy when I see Baba and Mr L. So whatever I did I couldn’t get out of the circle it just kept happening.
It’s amazing what a day can do though isn’t it. One day of not thinking about work has completely changed my view on things, I am feeling better this evening. More rational about what I have done, and happier with what I am doing.
I do spend enough time with Baba and the time that I am not with him he is in capable hands, with my mum and Mr L’s mum and if he isn’t with them he is with my sister so there is no question that he is fine. Seeing him with his cousins today, proved that he was having so much fun running around, he walked for 2 hours bless him! But at the end of the day when he fell over and began to feel tired, he wanted his mummy so that is all that counts. Even if I am away from him all is forgiven in his eyes, so it is ok.
With regards to work, I am also a lot clearer. I have toyed with the idea for a while and have decided that it is the right way to go. I am branching out to do party planning as well. I have sold the old-fashioned way door to door, but I am now going to try it out this way and see how it goes. I have sorted out the rewards and the party structure I now just have to do the paperwork for the hostesses. I think this is the way to go with the business, and I am feeling really happy about it, I am not comfortable with it, but I think it is a good thing to go out your comfort zone.
So one day out in the sunshine can change your perspective on everything, and so far it has just made it all seem positive so long may it continue.
And Then All I Thought About Was You 